I'm almost too full to write today. It's one of those "curl up and hide in bed" days which are so opposed to discipline. I've been pretty faithful to pray on the hour and do those things that I know I need to do to stay spiritually healthy, but today was hard. Ian is teething and fussy. David won't stay down for his nap. Rob needed the computer when I wanted to post this and even now the girls are pouring flour and baking soda all over the counter in their attempt to bake by themselves.
Even so, we are doing Baking Day, something I'm realizing is a discipline for me. It requires me to slow down, have the cooking space cleared and spend some time with my lovely girls. I almost didn't do it today. Putting them down for a nap would have been so much easier, and at six and four years old, they wouldn't even have remembered. But I would have. And I would have missed that time.
I even found myself at one point praying that my hourly watch chime would sound soon. Silly, I know, and I quickly realized that I didn't have to wait for the top of the hour. Giving thanks that He hears me all the time in any place, I stopped to pray. Rob has taken Ian to get butter (amazingly, we're out) and I give thanks again for my sweet and sensitive husband.
My few disciplines that I cultivate haven't come easily today, but I'm giving thanks for grace and struggling on. Thanks for your prayers today especially and I am praying that you my find grace and strength to carry on.
I understand Sarah. I have an empty nest these days, but there are still so many times when the spiritual disciplines become so difficult. You write with such a sweet spirit - your words are encouraging and a blessing.
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